Reported by Mandy Pandy. Find out why this teen believes that first love can be the real deal.

I wrote a five-page note to Dustin confessing everything that was in my heart. I told him that I didn't like anyone else, and I that I had never cheated on him. And I asked him to forgive me. At the end of the note I told him that I had not just let go of the love of my life, but my best friend. I told him that it was a mistake I will have to live with forever and that I hoped I had not hurt him too much. I signed the letter "Love Always, Mandy" and hand delivered it to his mailbox.

The two weeks went by and I didn't hear anything from him until the last day. I was home alone when there was a familiar knock on my door. I don't know how but I just knew it was Dustin. I was right. He looked older and taller but he was the same Dustin. He said he couldn't stay; he had to leave back to Job Core, but he wanted me to know that he forgave me. He said he loved me more than he could ever love anyone else. As I began to cry he handed me a letter, gave me a kiss on the cheek and a hug, and left.

I went back inside in my room and opened the letter. It read:

"Mandy, I forgive you for lying too me. Deep in my heart I knew you never cheated on me. I think what you did kind of changed me for the better. You were my first love Mandy... I could never love anyone as much as you. No love could ever compare."

After I calmed down and dealt with my heartbreak I finally felt at peace. I knew it was the best for him. I mean, I was happy for him. Even though my heart was hurting we finally had closure. I moved on with my life knowing he would not be a part of it. It was hard, but what other choice did I have? I had broken up with him! I had thrown away our love. He was happy now and I owed it to him to let him stay that way - to avoid complicating things. So I let go and moved on.

I still miss him at times. Some things still remind me of him. But I feel better now that I have finally told him the truth. I am at ease. It's been a year. We haven't talked since but I still keep in touch with his sister. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't listened to my friend; if I had just followed my heart and stayed with him. Would I be better off? Or would I be worse off? There is no way to know. But now I know what real love is, and how you can lose it by doubting it and your feelings. Teens can love - real love - don't let anybody tell you otherwise.

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