How Long Had You Been Dating Before the Breakup?
About a year and a half.
Who Broke Up with Whom?
Neither of us ended it officially, it was just obvious that it was done.
How Did the Breakup Go Down?
It was a party, I stayed with him that night, as I usually did. He forgot to tell me a girl had stayed the night the weekend before. And he walked right past me during the party, kissed me, said him and a group of friends were going to look for someone who went on a walk, well just kidding, him and that girl walked right to the driveway and had sex in her car. That girl called me the day after, angry that I stayed the night? Apparently, they'd been "talking" for months. She told me I "meant nothing to him" and I guess she was right...
How Did You Get Over the Breakup?
I didn't get over it. I'm still not over it. I really thought I loved him. I deleted his number out of my phone, I walk a different route in the hallways of our high school to avoid contact with him. But every time I get a text from a strange number, I hope it's him. Or a message on facebook. A tap in the hall. Seeing him makes me sad, and thinking about him makes it even worse. I have an empty feeling, I get sick to my stomach when he's around. It may be hard to believe, but my heart, my chest, my lungs, my stomach... physically ache. Every song, movie, and everyday conversation reminds me of him. I try to stay busy but everything I lay eyes on makes me think of him. I would never ever get back together with him, I want to hate him. I never want to talk to him again. But I just can't seem to let the thought of him go. I am madly, head over heels, in love with him. And it's killing me.
Lessons Learned
- The time we spent together was amazing. And I wouldn't trade those memories for the world. But I'm starting to question whether or not those good feelings in the past, were worth the pain I feel now.