Who Was It With?
A kid I'd met the year before, who was in my advisory in the seventh grade.
When Did You Realize It was Love?
Sept. of grade 8, I was downtown with my mom and I saw him riding his bike.
What Did It Feel Like?
That was when I KNEW it was love, but before I'd really really liked him, so it wasn't really like I FELL in love, I just lowered myself really slowly. But it's that horrible feeling that there're strings tying your heart to him that he can break in a split second, without any warning. I knew I was really screwed, all I wanted was to fall right out of love and get over him, because he was a prick. But I loved him so much. I had that feeling, where you feel like you're going to fall over because your knees are so weak, and you can feel your heart beating, but that's all normal. Love is something you know in your head
What Happened Next?
It's more of what happened before. But the story hurts me waaay too much to recount, and so far nothing has happened after. He hates me. He really, honestly, hates me. When I just LIKED him a lot, he hated me that most. He would call me an ugly b*tch everyday, throw bananas in my hair, and scream in my face. He also got half the grade to hate me, which ruined my social life. After I realized I loved him, nothing happened. I told all my friends I hated him because they knew he was so bad for me. One friend, I eventually told her I was in love, but still nothing really came of it. He had a girlfriend, the only time he ever talked to me was to tease me about an old joke, and he never looked at me. I wish I could say I got over him, but I'm still not. Maybe 13 is young to fall in love, and maybe you don't believe me, but I don't care because I just know. He was the second boy I'd ever liked. I'm still in love with him but I hate him so much for what he did to me.
Lessons Learned
- Don't give away your heart to someone who doesn't care about you or your feelings
- Stand up to boys when they bug you, it will only get worse
- If you only THINK it's love, it's not.
- Don'd judge by first impressions
- Get over that effing boy already because he is not good for you