Who Was It With?
Nathan McIlwraith.
When Did You Realize It was Love?
After we broke up, I realized that I couldn't run away from it.
What Did It Feel Like?
Not the typical tingly feeling. It was different, like this amazing feeling that made time stop, & I realized that love does exist, because after all that time I was so scared of falling in love. It wasn't bad, it was good, but I had been so scared before that we broke up. When we broke up, that's when I realized that I loved him, because I didn't realize it until I looked him in the eyes after that and I knew that I couldn't pretend I didn't feel this amazing feeling inside and out. I was in love, & I couldn't stop it.
What Happened Next?
He made out with one of my best friends and then came to my locker and told me that she was a better kisser then I was. It was probably to make me mad, because he told me that I was an epically, insane, amazing kisser ;) & I didn't know what to do with all that anger and hurt inside of me. I just couldn't control it so I found a rebound boy. For a while, I let myself believe that he meant nothing to me, but I was only lying to myself. I loved him, there was no getting out of it.
Lessons Learned
- If he's your best friend, then don't do it. No matter how much it hurts you to pass dating him/her by, don't, because after, nothing's going to be the same, and you're going to regret it.
- That's all I know, but basically, don't fall in love - moving on is the hardest part and I haven't even gotten to it yet. You don't want to be broken-hearted; leave things the way they are, or let them fall into place.