Who Was It With?
My older brother's friend, Jacob
When Did You Realize It was Love?
When I went on vacation for a month and it killed me to be away from him
What Did It Feel Like?
It's the most amazing, indescribable joy on the planet. When I see him, I blush and smile and get butterflies in my stomach. I miss him when I'm away for even a few minutes. When I'm with him, I'm safe. I'm protected and I'm happy. I'm comfortable and I can talk to him about anything. I can be completely honest and he won't judge me. We tell each other everything. Share everything. When he kisses me, my head spins and its perfect. When he holds me, i feel safe and comfortable in his arms, nothing can hurt me ever. He's my sole reason for existence. He's imperfect, but perfect for me. I need him more than anything
What Happened Next?
We met when my brother brought him over to hang out. I was immediately attracted to him. He was cute and something about him just made me curious and made me want to know more about him. I ended up talking to him and my brother for a little while before he went home. Then all that week at school, i looked for him everywhere. I didnt see him once in the halls and we didnt have the same lunch. I was always nervous to see him because i didnt know what i would do. Then when the weekend came we hung out at a friends for movie night with his and my brother's group of friends that i didnt know very well but they convinced me to go because they knew i was interested in Jacob. We hung out all that weekend and clicked immediately. I could just tell that there was a mutual feeling and he could too. I know it sounds cliche but its true. We started hanging out a lot, then summer came about a month later. In the middle of summer, when we had both gotten used to seeing each other every day, I had to go on vacation to see my dad. I was leaving for a month and i was absolutely terrified to go. I knew i would miss him more than anything. I needed him more than the air i breathe. While i was gone, i cried a lot and we texted as much as we could (my dad hated when I texted around him, so it was difficult) and called each other. he always told me how he missed me. He is the most honest, trustworthy, genuine person in the world, just so you know :) So while i was away, i started thinking... maybe i love him. It was a crazy concept to me. I had never expected love to find me so quickly. I'm only 15 and already, i was contemplating love. When i returned home, we only had 3 days together before he went on vacation for a week. When i saw him again for the first time in a month, it was the happiest moment ever. I was made whole again. My heart had been returned to me. Seriously, i was nothing without him. He's a part of me. So the night he had to leave, he came to my house to spend a few hours with me. And after we watched a movie and talked for a long while, he told me he loved me. Actually, he said he thought he loved me. And so i said, You think you do, or you do? and he was like, well i do. it was just easier to say it that way. Then he told me he loved me. I was so happy tears welled up in my eyes and i said i love you too. Since then, we've been inseperable. Im in love with him with all of my heart. He makes me happier than i could ever imagine being,Its been 6 months strong(:
Lessons Learned
- You find love where you least expect it. I never thought i'd fall in love with my brothers friend, a boy sweet and genuine and cute, with morals and strong beliefs.
- Don't be afraid to take a risk. Go for it if you think there could be something special. I immediately told my brother i thought he was cute and he told him. I wasnt afraid of him not agreeing.
- Never give up on love. I thought after the couple useless relationships i had before that it would be years before i found the one person i want to be with forever. I was wrong :)
- Love like you've never loved before. I love Jacob more and more every day